Friday Morning the Tenth - Close to Dawn

I love A .. in his mysterious silence ... There's a dark side that I can't reach in his soul. Too long of being lonely maybe. God, show me a way to get through this.
By the way, I met Ho on my way to class this evening. He's still tall and blonde and self-centered ... We talked a bit and then I had to run for my late marketing class. It's just funny that I was thinking how he's doing these days and I bumped on him on the street. See ... your mind is powerful!!! :) hahaha ... too much sleep .. still an insomniac like always.

New York, October 8, 2002

I wear his sweater tonight, just because I miss him, but being too close could be so dangerous sometimes. You are jeoparding your heart of getting hurt, so I lay this night for myself. Reading through some freaking Access page that so techie, I wish I were smarter or at least start this whole shit earlier. But that's ok ... :P~~~

Sometimes I don't understand how my life could goes up and down in no time, just as split second, at the blink of an eye. I should feel lucky that some three guys are head over heel on me. But voila! I felt miserable ... I felt like, Fuck everybody .. but I know who I love, even with some uncertainty ... Love that makes me strong.