New York, October 8, 2002

I wear his sweater tonight, just because I miss him, but being too close could be so dangerous sometimes. You are jeoparding your heart of getting hurt, so I lay this night for myself. Reading through some freaking Access page that so techie, I wish I were smarter or at least start this whole shit earlier. But that's ok ... :P~~~

Sometimes I don't understand how my life could goes up and down in no time, just as split second, at the blink of an eye. I should feel lucky that some three guys are head over heel on me. But voila! I felt miserable ... I felt like, Fuck everybody .. but I know who I love, even with some uncertainty ... Love that makes me strong.