"Waiting in vain"

Aku punya kebiasaan buruk yang sampai detik ini belum bisa kuhapus, meski kumengerti jelas nggak bagus. Aku suka menunda. Prinsipku, kalo bisa ditunda kenapa enggak? .... nah, jadinya apa yang aku bisa kerjakan sekarang, sering kutunda sampai saat yang tidak tentu. Ah, masih bisa nanti kok .... Sehari, dua hari, tiga hari, and so on ... and time passes by, I start losing count. I end up forgetting what I supposed to do and a week later or a month later, things're getting out of my hands. The simplest thing for example is replying email, ... I can't always find the right story or words to write back, so I postponed .. but that's okay. Masalahnya, kadang aku udah tau apa yang ingin kutulis, tapi entar aja ahhhhh ...

Terus di other day, lagi aku di subway, .. aku baca Readers Digest yang aku comot dari anong, ...aku baca tentang JFK, presiden Amerika yang terkenal itu. The title is "The secret JFK kept from the world", April 2003 ed., p. 152-169. Di situ ditulis, dia adalah figur yang menggambarkan sosok yang penuh vitalitas, youthful, strong, energetic. But it was all lies, he covered it up. He was a very sick person since a little boy. His family knew all along that he wouldn't live a long live. "Life is unfair .... " as he said famously, exactly described his situation. Sick to death, he grabbed everything in front of him, he never wanted to wait or lose cause he knew he might never get a chance anymore.

As I finished reading it, it came across me ... when you know you don't have time ... you just do it. Everything that holds you back, never matter ...
Why not think like that, you never know how long you gonna live anyway. I waste too much time.

GRAB LIFE TODAY...